Monday, January 31, 2005
+ everything shall just end here +
am darn tired. slept and woke up more than 3 times today during lessons. and veronica keeps insisting that i look at her. and she was like ' zai kan yan jing jiu yao diao chu lai le'..i was like diaos. o_O""
keep having a sudden urge to cry. for no particular reasons. wonders why. maybe im too tired. maybe im stressed. maybe..
forget it.
10:00 PM
Thursday, January 20, 2005
+ zai gu du zong jue wang+
WHO;
..makes u smile?
everyone i like :D
..pays your cellphone bills?
daddy! :D
..do you think loves you?
i dunno. :/
... do you want to slap?
myself.
.. is the first on your phonebook?
my AHMA!
WHAT;
.. don't u like about in this life?
stress, disappointment, unfulfilled commitments, tired :(
.. do you want to do right now?
i want to leave this place to somewhere with no one and live by myself, without stress, without disappointments. i wanna be isolated :D
.. is it that makes u smile?
when i see two old folks holding hands (that's so sweet!)
when there's good news
when i see people i noe
.. bothers you?
many many :/
.. do you like in your house?
the toilet!
WHEN;
.. is your birthday?
o7o589
.. did you last saw ur school?
just now..
.. will you get serious with your life?
when the things i wanna get it right.
.. do you think will there be peace?
when the sky drops! haha! nah..when there's no more war and people could learn to be more simple in their thinking. i think humans are scheming and selfish by nature.
.. did you do your last prank?
no no pranks! :)
WHERE;
.. do you live?
singapore at kembangan where there's a huge long gang!
.. is your school located?
ang mo kio.
.. do you hang-out the most?
everywhere anywhere.
.. were you born?
mount elizabeth.
.. do you plan to have your end of year holidays?
just outta town!
.. are you now?
at home.
HOW;
.. would u define love?
complicated thing.
.. do u want ur burial to be?
something basic shall do. im simple so i dunwant to end my life with such complicated procedures. see! i die cheaply! haha :D
.. often do you listen to music?
everyday.
.. do you live your life?
im wasting my life everyday. haha!
7:10 PM
Wednesday, January 19, 2005
+ the one i never own+
physics test yesterday
chem test today
screwed up both tests.
:/
im suffering from the internal orh ba kah!
from those violent hits! tsk!
and im still cold after 3 layers of long sleeve.
what's happening to me! gees.
:(
today's so not my day i guess.
had pe today. was hit by the "hockey-look-alike" stick twice. and i hope no blue black's gonna pop out. its like just pe? why have to play and take it so hard that goes hitting people and almost tripping people over the stick? tsk..
then pan. she and her forever nagging of " qianya yi fu chuan hao lai. bu yao mei ci kan dao ni dou yao jiao ni chuan hao ni de xiao fu. ba yao dai kou hao yi dian. (followed on my her that grin!) " oh pls la! dun pick on me on my uniform la. i have been like that for the past three years. and this last year, why still insist i make any changes? and that grin..eeyur! dun nehnehpohpoh me anymore la. bleh!
after school, went with alicia and jeanette to search for fbt shorts but we cun find. but alicia was hilarious all the way. cute cute! :D
alright. enough of my ranting.
next week-2 amath +1 hcl
7:26 PM
Monday, January 17, 2005
+vulnerability+
alicia is so cute today! hey! remember our dramatic one! should have learnt from me. then everything will jus go so well and hilarious! you silly girl la! ha! :D
had chinese ppt today. was in the wondering state of what i was reading and zhang thinks she SO cute la. test us on what we had done. and we were stuck for god sake. then she went nehnehpohpoh-ing about us doing the project and not able to answer her the questions regarding the project. whatever la! we're the first to present. what you expect. bleh!
stayed back for math remedial. so that we can get back our amath paper. and recap about the past year taught topics.
toms- physics
wed-chem
next week-3 amath, 1 hcl
6:39 PM
Saturday, January 15, 2005
+ solitude+
wads't the world coming to
when i don't even noe myself..
i wanna be rid. :(
9:00 PM
Friday, January 14, 2005
+simply youu+
darn tired day!
morning jog early in the morning then comes lit test which i haven even read much. abit the can take the test la. the book's like 14 chapters but i read like 3 plus chapters? like how well done! wows..hurhur. the the paper was like all filled with my own rubbish story la. anyhow fill in. and its graded. like thankew.
slept darn late last night to mug for amath. was going bonkers doing trigo late at night. and i think i can conclude that im officially attached to log! err..like wadever la..amath retest.hmm..much better than last year eoy. hope i can score. if not i will be a panda for nuts for nothing.
then cca. was discussing about the new cca tee and badge. then it ended early and i waited for my parents to come school for parents meet. the talk ended like 8 plus la. then my parents went to buy their dinner and i went to buy books and jus came back not long. how interesting.
okey..enough of my sarca..blehs.
i bite tonight. :/
11:05 PM
Wednesday, January 12, 2005
+ i let my heart unbend+
10:18 PM
Monday, January 10, 2005
+a part of me missing+
a usual school day for me.
just that i was;
less laughy,
less jumpy,
less funny,
less easily amused,
less talkative,
less bothered about any thing,
less awake.
had a great talk or not so great talk afterall yesterday.
gees.. i guess they are just the sole masters of controlling my emotions.
they asked me why i was kind of wierd recently and stuff.
told them and they nehninehnipohpoh me. whatever la.i was so trying hard to swallow everything but just cun make it and everything just ran like tap. blehs! they claimed to talk sense out of me.but i think im more confused now? ask me to think alone.how can? i want everything to be simple and they took out more chiem things and ask me to think alone? ah nia can't make it la. don't ask me! i dunno :'/
and my conclusion yesterday night.
the best place where you can
-cry alone
-bang your head against the wall
-drown yourself in the bathtub
-look at the shit you're in
-cool everything with a cold shower
the everdearest toilet. my one and only hideout at home i guess :/
today yeo yeo came in and shocked us claiming that there's a math test. then we were all like what?! but it ended up some lil exercise la. O_o!!
huahui toms. 230-530.
friday got amath retest, lit quiz and huahui.
busy busy end of the week.
7:00 PM
Sunday, January 09, 2005
i miss youu like crazy even more than words can say;
i miss youu like crazy every minute of everyday
4:00 PM
that's when i love you
when u have to look away
when u don't have much to say
that's when i love u
i love u just that way
to hear u stumble when u speak
or see u walk with two left feet
that's when i love you
i love u endlessly
and when your mad cause u lost the game
forget i'm waiting in the rain
baby i love u
i love u anyway
cuz here's my promise made tonight
u can count on me for life
cuz that's when i love u
when nothing u do can change my mind
the more I learn the more i love
the more my heart can't get enough
that's when i love u
when i love u
no matter what
so when u turn to hide your eyes
cuz the movie it made u cry
that's when i love u
i love u
a little more each time
and when u cant quite match ur clothes
or when u laugh at your own jokes
that's when i love u, i love u
more then u know
and when u forgot that we had a date
or that look that u give when u show up late
baby i love u, i love u anyway
so here's my promise made tonight
u can count on me for life
cuz that's when i love u
when nothing u do can change my mind
the more i learn the more i love
the more my heart cant get enough
that's when i love u
when i love u
no matter what
oh that's when i love u when nothing baby, nothing u do could change my mind
the more i learn, the more i love, the more my heart can't get enough
that's when i love u, when i love u no matter what
oh no matter what
2:08 PM
my angel lifted me high
i thought everything's never gonna be the same again.
but,
i fell.
it hurts :(
where's my angel?
1:18 PM
Friday, January 07, 2005
+a part of me will always be with youu+
today's so slack.
we seem more free than the sec3 classes around our level.
so many lessons are like kind of free periods and math was so fun :D
yeo is just SO cute! her dice and cards. haha!
and yep. saw this ah pek in the bus. he was carrying this
PINK MARSHIMAROW bag! and even his phonebook was in
PINK toos! i was like omg! and stared at his things and he saw me staring at him and he hurry shifted his things inwards. -_-''' pls..im only amused by the
PINK.haha.
4:39 PM
Thursday, January 06, 2005
+my heart beated for youu+
was rushing through my work today in school and was busy sorting out worksheets. pile by pile! god! slept very late last night toos.about 2 plus plus? to squeeze through my brain to finish my math cos i lost the god whole pile and i have to redo! so was practically shagged and in total no mood for joking today. sorry if i look pissed at anyone? haha.
but there's something so wrong today! its either my listening has serious problem or if not, alicia cant speak well! haha! alicia! i told you im blogging this.
alicia saied something like : where's my worksheet.
and i mistook it and i was like : huh? birdsheet?
then cos mrs kong said she like the number eight.so alicia was saying eight is 'fa' in chinese.
and i was like: -shock!- did alicia just said fcuk?
told her about it. and we went laughing and she say i anyhow think so much..tsktsk..haha! but alicia! i dig my ears! so i shun listen wrongly! :D
oh yep. then the teachers are coming in and telling us we have this common tests here and then. starting on week3 i think.which is wth? with projects graded toos? bleh :P
10:45 PM
Wednesday, January 05, 2005
+my bare soul lasts for youu+
school's torture!
i mean the work we have is killer? maybe not but to me it IS!
darn tired this few days. couldn't get good sleeps and im looking as horrendous as if im taking exams now!
-screams-
ms fazi told us about our year stuffs.like our Os and study sechdule and things. suddenly felt that i really had NO time? cos Os results release might be brought forward and its based on oxford and not cambridge anymore. and regretted that i keep sleeping throughout lessons last year and i have no idea how to do some work. well well :(
stayed back to do chinese project today. and we're done? alicia am i right to say so? haha! its so colourful and looks like primary work..but though, it suits our school newly painted colour..so kindergarten-ish. but but, its cute! and we took alot of effort to do it! be prouda the spices :D anyhow, i want zhang lao shi back! she's still as nice and cute as ever? gee :D
so many things in mind. but i just forgot wad i wanna blog about. random toughts.
7:01 PM
Tuesday, January 04, 2005
+ youu are my one and only+
last day of slacking day.
toms official lesson time!
gees..
so many uncompleted work.-sigh-
oh yea!
this sat is sec1 orrientation :)
and huahui has been changed from thurs to tues and fri.
work time :/
5:06 PM
Monday, January 03, 2005
+my world revolves round youu+
first day of school today.
was so slacking and we were to stay in the hall to do mass activity.sat there for nuts till my legs went numb! gee..im still so not used to being a sec4.i still feel sec2? haha..10 years in sngs.finally the last year before more unpredictable future goes.wonders what a life i would lead then. hmm..
my new year resolutions for this year:
1) to mug hard
2) love everyone more
3) love sn a lil more
4) top few jc or a 10 points or even better if below
5) santa! where's my unfullfilled wishes?
6) to treat everyone nicer
7) tidy my place often
8) err..kill me before asking me to make adjustments to my attire
9) lose weight before grad
10) stay positive no matter wad happens
11) be a lil nerdy
12) not disappoint anyone
13) make people around me happy
14) less naggy
15) less jumpy
16) less laughy
17) spend my time wisely
18) work!
19) participate in more things and make my life more interesting
20) i dunno what i want liaos.if i think about it and thought of it, it shun be to late to wish bah?
hope i can get wad i want. especially with my results and stuffs. don't want my mother to get disappointed in me since this is my last year in sngs. feel SO attached to it than to anyone or anything else. major exam. shall be nerdy! haha!
5:25 PM
Sunday, January 02, 2005
+persuing a dream+
toms is official school start!
omg! omg! omg!
i haven done anything so far!
hmmm..
opps :/
12:12 PM
Saturday, January 01, 2005
+ brand new start+
some random thoughts that ive decided to post here about my lil reflections through this year.
hmm..got to learn many things whether through activities held or people whom i look up to. like the qihang and xiaopin, drama camp,sports day, gen and yanhan's campaign,huahui camp,many many more..really glad that im given a chance to participate in all this things and i thank god for letting you guys and those opportunities to take place as part of my life. and as i take a step each and everyday, i grew and learnt to be strong and not so naive anymore.though who's not naive la..haha..hmm..but special thanks to this people:
universe: hey dears! though we haven accomplished our wish of a universe sentosa trip. but we'll make it a dream come true soon! we all have to hang in there and right after our major exams we can just go hoolaa over anything! ha! and i thank you guys for being there for me always. to listen to me when im down, to jump with me when im happy! without you guys, i really don't know what will happen in my life. it would be so empty.we laugh at silly things and talk about almost anything or out of nothing too! my birthday,universe's formation day will always be buried down my heart.i love you guys! :)
triplet hydrogen isotopes:hey! my triplets! we are growing so alike each and everyday except our hair are going so different.maybe cos i have bad hair day everyday? haha..anyway dears! thanks for making the class a nice place to get into.i never felt that school was fun until this year?the silly things triplets do, our cheek to cheek, our laughing! hmm..really memorable! the penguin, the bunbun, the duckie! we love each other lots :)
PL+ pinkie babe:hey! i signed your gbk..the things i wanna say to you :) yep! really cun find anyone like you to biker with me and yet make me feel so bad after that.haha! you're jus like my inner self.when i dunno wad i myself want,you noe.haha!you help me made my dream,i love you pinkie babe regardless whatever happens :)
gen:darling! glad that you became the vice-head. great leader darling! was really glad you and i came into this lil class called threepee. when we knew each other in netball since and it was a great experience i had with you cos anywhere i go, as long ans my darling is there, life won't be that dense and down.thanks for letting me rattle to you whenever im down or pissed.and for the fun we had together, sexeh loves fellow darling sexeh! :D
drama camp:myra, pei, jovena, jieying, xuezhen, alicia, yinghan, yi, hwee ping, ruobin, jenn and many many more..those who aren't in sn toos..nice camp this year, cos we're a huge group invading there!haha..the dance was a sweet one. miss the times we joked and laugh as one huge blue sea :)
everyone:a new year, new dreams out there for us to catch.but don't abandon the old one la! hmm..thanks for making my life different in someway how. :D
ka zua: hello miss! i still cant sign your gbk la! haha..ka zua dun crawl here and there! crawl to my gbk pls :D
2:10 PM
